Lists, Lists, Lists.... I have still not made my lists..... I have realized during my self imposed solitary confinement that I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I had found myself in the last 2 years, but I am lost again or maybe was never really found. How do you find yourself? Eat, Pray, Love???? I don't have a year to Eat, Pray and Love and am surely not ready to Love, what is love anyway, does it really exist, will I ever open myself up to it? I don't know I am meant for it, to love means to open yourself to another with no walls, no barriers, 100% truth and openness - to me, that means vulnerability and hurt. Two things I am not willing to accept.