It's been almost a year since I met Sasquatch (my nickname for my Ex Fiance). I have seen him twice and once he saw me too. I cried, I got angry, I tried to understand and I hoped that one day he gets what he deserves. I wanted Karma, but then I realized that maybe his Karma is the fact that he can't live in truth or love or happiness. What a horrible life that would be and even though he might not realize it is horrible, it isn't a life anyone in their right mind would choose. I live my life with love, honestly, trust and family I can't imagine living it any other way.
I made some incredible friends along the way and am grateful for all that experience brought me, but not grateful for the fear that is also reminded me that I had always had. Fear of failure, fear of loneliness and fear of trust. Don't get me wrong, I am at peace, I am happy in my life with my girls, but I would like to have love in my life again but a part of me is afraid to let it in.
How do you date as a single Mom? On-line? I have been on EHarmony, Match, Plenty of Fish and I would say that there is not much out there that is worth my time. Plenty of Fish is a trolling ground for one night stands, Match is a trolling ground for men looking for 22 year old pinups, and then there are the 40 some year old men who all of a sudden want to settle down and have kids after a life of Bachelorhood and oh, by the way are way younger then their actual age and would only date women in their 20's who must also rock a string bikini. E-Harmony, I swear I filled the questionnaire out wrong, because there wasn't one man that they matched me with that I was even remotely interested in. I'm 5'7" and you are telling me to date a pocket? Let's face it there has to be some physical attraction there.
What else is there? The random guy you happen to meet out who wants to "take you home"? My Grandmother told me that love isn't possible again until I'm in my 50's and I sure do hope she is wrong.
Single Mom trying to find someone to date and I'm picking this time. I've been picked; I divorced one and the last one was a Con Artist / Sociopath, this time I'm being picky. Yep, I said PICKY!! We all deserve to be a little PICKY.
